At the end of the day, if I said I love you, I always will. I may not always be in love with you, but I’ll always love you. I don’t use that word in vein. When I say it I mean it, and if you EVER need me for anything. I’d be there, hands down. No matter what you did to me, or whatever. I’d be there. I have that problem. I can’t turn my back on people who need me..
I cannot sleep, I cannot eat, I cannot think, I cannot overcome my loneliness, my fear, my disgust, I cannot be alone, I cannot be with others, I do not want to die but I do not want to live, some would call this self-indulgence but some would know the simple fact of pain… this has become my normality